I haven’t posted for quite a while now that’s why I decided to create this life update post instead. Thinking about it, I think a lot of things (good and bad) really have happened to me lately and I figured it might be good to share it with you guys so I can finally move forward.
STRESS
Dealing with stress is pretty normal especially during this difficult time. I always believe that I am great at handling my stress so I didn’t expect that a time would come that I will be having a really hard time controlling it. I guess it started a few months after the covid exploded and we were instructed to stay at home to help lessen the spread of the virus last year.
I was so stressed out that it even affected my sleep. Lack of sleep + stress, imagine the outcome with that combination. Disastrous right?
THE SOURCE
I want to believe that it was all because of the pandemic but nope hahaha. Maybe it contributed a little but work f*cked me up big time. Physical stress, I can handle, but mental stress is just too much.
I’ve worked with a lot of people in the past, each of them with different personalities. Some were easy to deal with, and there were others that were a little complicated. Having a coworker with an attitude problem can be tolerated sometimes but I’m afraid being a part of a group with a leader you don’t believe in is just too much. I thought I could hold on especially because it’s so hard to find work these days, but having to clean up everytime he messes up at work is just too much. I still find my job interesting, but it’s just too much for my mental health. It’s not part of my job description and I am not paid enough for that sh*t! I really miss my old team 🙁
I’ve been thinking and saying a lot of bad things about this person and I REALLY HATE what I’ve become.
I QUIT
I love some of my co-workers; they are like a family to me. That’s why it was so hard for me to make a decision, but I know I have to. And yes, last July I finally sent my resignation and had my last day in the company last friday, August 13. Pretty fitting date for a last day eh? Hahaha.
Thinking about it now, I think the reason why I was also kind of stagnant for a month is because of my resignation hahaha. I guess I’m really that excited eh? Now that I am free, I am slowly regaining my peace of mind and I couldn’t be happier. I may have no money (because I don’t have work anymore hahaha), but I just realized that money indeed is not always the most important thing. It should always be your health, not just physically but also mentally.
PLANS
I’ve dedicated all of myself at work for the past 3 years, so now I would like to focus on myself for a change and finally have my life back. And you know what that means right? Hahaha. That means more books and anime/manga in the future, yay!
IT’S NOT ALWAYS THE BAD
Now that the bad chapter in my life is finally settled, I would also like to mention some good things that I’ve discovered during those trying times. I’m really excited for this hehehe.
- Obey me
- webtoons/manhua
If you’ve been following me on twitter, I’m sure you already know about Obey me hahaha. I just realized that I’ve been posting about it a lot lately so I guess you already have an idea that I’m addicted to it eh? Hahaha.
Obey me is a dating sim and I really really enjoy the story. If you are curious and want to give it a try, check it here.
As for the webtoons/manhua, they really had me eat my words. I’ve been hearing about these two before, but I don’t want to give them a try because I’m already happy with my manga and books. But heck, there’s some really good ones out there and they made me read them eventhough I hate waiting for updates hahaha. I’ll probably write an article about some of the manhwa/manhua I’ve been following lately, so please be ready for it hehehe.
CONCLUSION
I hope I didn’t bore you with my story above hahaha. Now that’s settled, I can’t wait to finally get on with my life.
I totally get it, Vanessa, and you did the right thing! A couple of years ago, my best friend had to quit her job because of the awful work environment that was truly killing her mentally. She would cry every day until depression kicked in hard, and then she knew she had to do something. Honestly, no one should go through that, and I see why you decided to quit. Indeed, sometimes it is the good and HEALTHY thing to do. So, my friend, now take some time to re-charge and enjoy all the Manga, Anime, and Web-toons that make you feel good 😊 Of course, ‘Obey Me’ as well! Hehe, I see your posts on Twitter 😉 xx
To tell you honestly, the first few days after my last day at work, I was feeling kind of down. I was doubting whether I did the right decision or will I regret it later on. I guess that’s also the reason why I only posted a week after my resignation since I need to reassure myself and to finally stop blaming myself of the outcome. Dang, working on that kind of environment for a pretty long time sure does make your mind go haywire. I’m glad I was able to brave it out and quit before its too late. And yes, praying that no one would go through this too. It’s just too messed up.
Thank you so much for this encouragement Silvia, it really means a lot <3
At my last job, which I loved a lot and it was a fulfilling job with good co-workers, I was getting so stressed out from those who ran our site and all the pressure they were putting on us to do more and more with no overtime to do it that I was getting physically ill. My doctor thought I had cancer because of how my body was acting. Turned out that stress was doing it. I had to go part-time and then finally quit. It was a hard decision and I cried because I really did like my job, but it was literally killing me. So, all that to say, sometimes you have to change jobs and look after your health. 🙂 You’ll find just the right job. Wishing you well, Vanessa!
That’s awful Sophia Rose. I can’t imagine what you might have felt during those difficult time 😢 And yes, it definintely comes down to health, both physically and mentally. Thanks for sharing this and for the encouragement Sophia Rose 🙂
I wish you lots of luck with finding a new job when you are ready for it. For what it is worth, I definitely agree that mental health is just as important – if not more so – than physical health. Hopefully your break will refresh you and you’ll be ready for whatever life brings next.
Aww, thanks for this Nicci <3